So I’ve decided to take my television out of my bedroom. I feel like everyone makes there room and there house set up all perfectly till the point were they have no reason to get up or leave. I fucking hate that. I won’t lie to you, I am bored without the television and its only been a few hours. But I refuse to build this nest. All it does is contribute to my procrastination and laziness. I don’t know why I feel the need to be so productive all the time. I have such an existential outlook on life so I never really get the point to anything I’m doing. I hate this Peter Pan Syndrome bullshit. I just want to be fucking 17 years old again. Illegal drinking at random places in town, high school, girls. Fuck, we had more restrictions then, but for some reason I felt like I had more freedom at 17 then I do now. I think I’ve just been digging my own grave by forming all these bad habits that I never thought would catch up to me. I’ve had this “wing it” attitude almost my whole life and I’m finally realizing I can’t wing everything anymore. I actually have to go make things happen, make moves, take chances, live. I’ve always just sat around and just waited for things to come to me. I know taking my TV out of my room isn’t about to fix all these problems, but it’s still a habit I’d just like to break just for my own benefit. I can’t stand laying around, forever stuck in a nostalgic coma. I’ve been making a few more moves with the new brand. New logo still in the works. I don’t have a lot of money to spend with the rebrand so I’ll probably just be printing the logo on tees, tanks and hoods and try to scrap some money for new designs. I feel good about the new name and logo though. Summer is coming and the rest of my friends will be back from school soon. I’m usually more excited for summer, but for some reason I’m just not feeling it yet. I use to be more of the party goer and now I just don’t give a fuck. Maybe the first big patio bash will change my mind. I’ll be 21 saturday so maybe I’ll be in to this bar thing, but I don’t like drinking that much so who knows. It’s just a matter of getting out of the house and doing something social again. I fucking miss school. I don’t know why. I was miserable there also, but I suppose I’m only remembering the good parts of it. I really just need to leave the past though. The television is just a small start in the changing process. I hope to start some ‘good’ habits… whatever that means.